Dream last night

I had a dream last night. One of those dreams that combine people you know with really awkward or awful things even though they had nothing to do with it. There is a guy I know who’s married and he has this propensity to attach himself to other women typically just one woman, and they become “friends”. I don’t mean that he sleeps with them but he forms this emotional attachment that isn’t appropriate because he ignores his own wife. Everyone knows about it. Well, the lady he had been “friends” with got married some time ago and moved away, I don’t think she was ever into him, she was just a nice person. Anyway, so recently he’s been turning his attention towards me. He calls me at night and wants me to get into the t.v. shows and music that he’s into (he’s old enough to be my dad). If I don’t watch the stuff he’s suggested he gets put out. He knows next to nothing about me even though he’s known me for over a decade. I’m very uncomfortable with him and my husband is getting pissed about his conduct. So, since my last therapy session I’ve said that I’ve been thinking a lot about the fear I had when I was younger that a man was in my bed and how I would freeze in terror. I remember that when it happened I was always sleeping on my side so it felt like a man was laying behind me with my back to him. Of course there was no one there. Last night my dream combined this guy with my fear of someone being in my bed. In my dream I was lying on my side and I knew that he was behind me. He leaned down and kissed my cheek and he put his hand in my shirt in-between where the buttons gapped open. He put his hand inside my pants and touched me and he would still kiss my cheek. Then he stopped just like that and left. Let me tell you, out of all of the stuff he did in the dream, kissing my cheek freaked me out the worse, weird huh? What a thing to pick to freak out about. I woke up and I was disturbed all morning until the feeling passed. I’m sure you know how that is when a dream stays with you for a while. Yuck, creepy! I have to see this guy tonight as he goes to my church ( no worries for those who feel negative toward religion which I totally get) My church isn’t a bad place just has a doofus idiot in it. *sigh* I’ve decided to follow my therapist’s suggestion and set up boundaries. I’m always too nice to people and I don’t have to let this guy make me uncomfortable. Heck my husband will step in if he gets out of line but I want to handle this myself. He doesn’t touch me or anyone for that matter because he’s a germaphobe lol !He’s just too familiar and he bugs me about stuff I don’t care about. I’d rather he focus his attentions on his wife.

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