Category Archives: dissociative fugue

The words “I believe you” and their effects in many avenues of life.


I had the appointment with the rheumatologist yesterday. This was the appointment that had been messing with my mind for a while. I knew that if this doctor didn’t take my symptoms seriously and actually do something…I was not going … Continue reading

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Why am I surprised to feel a feeling?


Maybe it’s because I’ve been so disconnected lately, I don’t know, but it took me by surprise today to realize that I feel depressed, at least I feel depressed today. I haven’t felt a lot recently so I can’t speak for the other … Continue reading

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Messages Repeating


Those words, “I want to die.” or “I wish I was dead.” are repeating more now. We had our little group get-together yesterday and I felt like many people have: alone in a room full of people. Actually the room … Continue reading

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New medication, woohoo! Not.


My psychiatrist decided to try taking me off of Seroquel which is terrifying, because I have been on it for so many years. I take it for sleep and also to prevent hallucinations. It works great but apparently it’s not … Continue reading

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I need to sort things out, jeez!


Quick post… First of all, let me apologize for not keeping up the blog the way I should. I haven’t been responding to comments or posting as much as usual and I’m really sorry. I will go back and read … Continue reading

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