Category Archives: Dreams

Verifying I *Can* Remember My Past


I’m swirling around in a frothy, annoying blender of doubt and frustration. That was beautiful wasn’t it? I simply cannot believe myself. I cannot believe the images I see and I am utterly terrified that these are just products of … Continue reading

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Anniversaries and Bad Dreams


I am not an anniversary kind of person when it comes to trauma. At least that’s what I tell myself. I figure if I refuse to acknowledge the anniversary of something horrible, then I will not have a reaction to … Continue reading

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I should be asleep…ugh


I have no idea why I’m awake. I found myself sitting on the bathroom floor trying to follow my therapist advice to identify my feelings. I think I was sad and anxious? It feels like I’m trying to feel something … Continue reading

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Therapy session, intimidating path continued Part 2


(Continued from previous post) I told her that after the dreams, my feelings started flowing more normally again and I started seeing images of my uncle and having random thoughts that inspired fear and sadness. I told her that my … Continue reading

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Good therapy session which leads to intimidating path Part 1


It’s kind of amazing how my last session restored my faith in my therapist. I’ve written about my frustration with her answers or what I felt were a lack of answers. I was doubting the process and doubting whether she … Continue reading

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