Category Archives: self-harm

Frightening Familiarity

Posted on April 27, 2013 by

It’s scary how comfortable addictions can be. I restricted my calories for a just a few days and exercised briefly like I did when my eating disorder was in full force and it’s frightening how much it felt like getting … Continue reading →

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Today is…not too good

Posted on April 24, 2013 by

My weight has risen to a point that I cannot accept. I’ve waited a couple of days but it hasn’t dropped and my anxiety is rising along with the numbers. I weighed myself this morning with so much hope that … Continue reading →

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Addictions Continue To Whisper

Posted on April 21, 2013 by

I’m just realizing how much addiction stays with you. I’m recovering from an eating disorder but it’s not gone the way I thought it was. Yes the all-consuming compulsion is gone but there are whispers now that haunt me when … Continue reading →

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And Then It Was Gone

Posted on February 6, 2013 by

Well folks, it’s been a roller coaster the past six months and now I’m back…I guess. I’ll explain. There has been a shift…a big one. At some point this last week my eating disorder disappeared. I blogged previously about my … Continue reading →

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Bucking The System

Posted on January 19, 2013 by

It doesn’t matter what my therapist says. I’m not ready to change my behaviors. Everything I read says that a person has to want to stop first. I don’t want to. It’s that simple. Maybe this makes me a bad … Continue reading →

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