Tag Archives: dissociation

Today is…not too good


My weight has risen to a point that I cannot accept. I’ve waited a couple of days but it hasn’t dropped and my anxiety is rising along with the numbers. I weighed myself this morning with so much hope that … Continue reading

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Brief Post To Update


Just to update: I ended up paying my therapist over $400 for January’s visits. Since she thinks she has to use the new codes I will be telling her that I will be changing my appointments to twice a month, … Continue reading

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What Does Discovery Feel Like?


I already wrote about the rather large realization I had about knowing my uncle before the “day” that I remember. A few mornings ago I had another one. It seems like these things come after I wake up. This time … Continue reading

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Out Of Options


My therapist told me today that considering my blood tests and blood pressure dropping that I am a few weeks away from having to go into to treatment a few hours away from where I live. She said that soon … Continue reading

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I’m Tired


As of today, I’ve already reached and surpassed the last weight loss goal I set. I’ve done this before. Reached a goal and then pushed the number back and set another goal. Already I’m thinking of pushing the number back … Continue reading

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