Tag Archives: fibromyalgia

I must not be as cavalier as I thought


I always tell my husband that I never worry about my health. I tell him that my curse in life is to have annoying things wrong with me that can’t be explained but cause lots of problems for me. It’s … Continue reading

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Why am I surprised to feel a feeling?


Maybe it’s because I’ve been so disconnected lately, I don’t know, but it took me by surprise today to realize that I feel depressed, at least I feel depressed today. I haven’t felt a lot recently so I can’t speak for the other … Continue reading

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Messages Repeating


Those words, “I want to die.” or “I wish I was dead.” are repeating more now. We had our little group get-together yesterday and I felt like many people have: alone in a room full of people. Actually the room … Continue reading

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I was surprised that my therapist actually responded to my email “check-in”


I did what I was supposed to and I checked in with my therapist while she is out out-of-town. I wasn’t surprised that she acknowledged receiving it, what surprised me was that the next day she had actually thought about something I … Continue reading

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Mumbles and ramblings


I dreamed about my aunt the other night, the one married to my abuser, or should I say one of them as my mother played a lovely role of her own even if it wasn’t sexual. I dreamed that my aunt … Continue reading

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