Tag Archives: incest

Bucking The System


It doesn’t matter what my therapist says. I’m not ready to change my behaviors. Everything I read says that a person has to want to stop first. I don’t want to. It’s that simple. Maybe this makes me a bad … Continue reading

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Out Of Options


My therapist told me today that considering my blood tests and blood pressure dropping that I am a few weeks away from having to go into to treatment a few hours away from where I live. She said that soon … Continue reading

Posted in Child Molestation, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Eating Disorder, Incest, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, PTSD, self-harm, Self-injury, Sexual Abuse, suicidal ideation, Therapy, Trauma | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | 18 Comments

The Blood Never Lies


I wasn’t sure how or when to blog about my recent blood tests. No need to freak, everything’s fine but I’m more interested in my reactions than I am in the test results themselves. My therapist ordered blood work because … Continue reading

Posted in Child Molestation, depression, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Eating Disorder, Incest, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, PTSD, self-harm, Self-injury, Sexual Abuse, suicidal ideation, Trauma | Tagged , , , , , , | 16 Comments

My Wishes For The Next Year (Not Fluffy or Pretty)


  I’m feeling rather morose and I’ve been thinking about what I want for myself next year. As the items came to my mind I realized that this is not a pretty list. It’s not nice, it’s actually quite…not nice. … Continue reading

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Verifying I *Can* Remember My Past


I’m swirling around in a frothy, annoying blender of doubt and frustration. That was beautiful wasn’t it? I simply cannot believe myself. I cannot believe the images I see and I am utterly terrified that these are just products of … Continue reading

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