Tag Archives: mental illness

Having A “Blank Slate” When It Comes To Feelings


This week the day leading up to therapy was full of feelings. Anxiety and super-pissedoffedness (yes I made up another word). The anxiety was because I did not want to go to therapy this week. It wasn’t because of fear, … Continue reading

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Trying to sit with sadness but it runs away


During my session this week I broached the subject of the anger I felt at my therapist for her speech on nutrition. I told her that I went on an eating bender that lasted days with the full knowledge that … Continue reading

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Dreams and other annoyances


I’m still being weaned off of one of my meds, by next week I should be off of it completely and we’ll see if that eventually helps the lupus. I’ve been dreaming about my mother ever since she contacted me … Continue reading

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Old issues arise and never being able to escape them (ties in with the previous collage)


Well I’m back from my trip. I’d like to say that it was fantastic but it was more stressful than I anticipated. I did have a good time here and there but during the trip I was confronted with an … Continue reading

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Events that remind me why I started this blog


As I write this, I am on the point of breaking. My best friend and her family are visiting me. A best friend should understand who I am and what I deal with having mental health issues. Anything I’ve said … Continue reading

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