Monthly Archives: September 2010

My mother won’t leave me alone! You give an inch they take a f&#@!’n yard!


Every since I agreed to see her this weekend things have changed. It’s my fault. I’m so stupid. I felt bad for her. Then within a couple of days my step-father left her and she cancelled the visit. I was … Continue reading

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Protected: Is it or isn’t it? Bringing up sexual issues in therapy. Read with discretion as the title is self-explanatory


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Taking a new medication for bipolar depression and trying to communicate with a child alter


After I saw my psychiatrist about the persistent depression, he decided that we should re-visit a medication I took several years ago but try a different dosage. This would be Abilify. I took Abilify years ago when it was first … Continue reading

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Protected: Why would this bother me, it was a small thing *triggering for sure* (I won’t be offended if there are no comments as this may upset other people)


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And then it goes down again…


After all my self-empowered speech in my last post, it’s all come crumbling down. It seems unfair to have two posts in the same day when I started out so well. My mother-in-law called me because we are doing our … Continue reading

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Giving myself permission to take an active role in handling DID and in meeting and acknowledging my alters


Therapy yesterday was very helpful. I had some questions that needed answering and they helped me to feel able to take a more active role in this process. First I told my therapist about what happened last Thursday. I told … Continue reading

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Trauma PTSD book recommendation


I wanted to mention a workbook I have that deals with PTSD and things that go with it like flashbacks and dissociation: The PTSD Workbook by Mary Beth Williams, Ph.D and Soili Poijula, Ph.D. I’ve had this book for several years and I … Continue reading

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