Monthly Archives: January 2011

Doubts return. A defense mechanism? Or is it possible I lied to myself? *not sure how triggering*


Doubts have resurfaced. It seems to be an inevitable cycle. The question is why have the doubts come back now? I actually don’t understand why I would lie to myself about the degree of sexual abuse I “remember”. That’s what I’m doubting, … Continue reading

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Alaskan mother hot saucing her adoptive child, not the video but the story is rough


I had to write something about this. I don’t even know what to say. I just read Faith’s blog about it and I saw the video (you should be very, very, careful about that video) I’m really glad Faith warned that … Continue reading

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Collage *You don’t have to look*


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I’m so sick of myself. Random post of pity, feel free to ignore it.


No real reason to post. I just wanted to say that today and the last few days, I really hate myself. I don’t need people to say that I have no reason to hate myself or that my compulsive behavior is … Continue reading

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Picture: Holding on to my dad. Just felt like putting it up…


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Part 2: Facebook Complications otherwise known as: I’m an idiot


First off, I want to thank everyone who commented on my last post about this whole Facebook thing with my father and his wife. Thank you SO much! There’s been a slight complication so I wanted to do a kind … Continue reading

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How sad is it to have to “Friend” your own father on Facebook?


I recently connect with some members of my father’s family. There was no abuse there, my father simply left my life when I was five. Anyway, because deep down inside I wanted some kind of connection with family, I “friended” some … Continue reading

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