Monthly Archives: February 2011

Painful emotions can be a gift. Huh, you say? read on…


I had therapy today and we covered several things and I want to share a little today and if anyone has thoughts feel free to share them. I was talking to my therapist about the “presence” of hate that seems … Continue reading

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Dilemma, a BIG one. What do you do when you feel responsible for making sure your abuser doesn’t hurt anyone else?


So, I’ve been struggling with this thought ever since the whole sexual abuse thing became real for me. I always remembered one situation that happened between my cousin/”Uncle” and I but I had always minimized it my whole life, until … Continue reading

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Photos of my doll (don’t look if dolls freak you out)


I took photos of my doll and I’m trying to work with them to get out whatever the heck I’m feeling. This is the doll that I see as me as a kid, the doll that I hate and tried to strangle … Continue reading

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Subject: how many abuse victims are exposed to other offenders throughout their life, offenders not related to their original abuser(s)?


This question has come up for me for reasons that I’m not prepared to go into now. My question is, what are the odds that someone who was a victim of childhood sexual abuse from a fairly regular source, (meaning … Continue reading

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I Am Your Hate (collage)


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A post for absolutely no reason


Have you ever felt the need to write but you have nothing to say? That’s today. I felt the need to get on my blog and write and I’ve got nothing to say. Nada, zip, zero. I’ve noticed that many … Continue reading

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There were serious repercussions from reading that book


Even though I didn’t finish reading “Conversations With A Pedophile. In The Interest Of Our Children”, I am aware today that there were serious repercussions for me. I read enough of that monster’s “insights” and his process of choosing victims … Continue reading

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