During my session this week, I told my therapist that I had vivid images of stabbing myself with a knife. I told her that I ended up only scratching myself and I was very unsatisfied that I hadn’t harmed myself more seriously.
The question has to do with my strategies that involve leaving my house. I know that playing music was one technique but at this time, my husband was coming home and it was going to rain. I can’t play music my music with him in the house because it freaks me out and the rain meant that I couldn’t go for a walk. I was left with no out, so my therapist wants me to write down something that I can do, preferably using large muscle movement that will prevent me from self-harming. Any ideas? It has to be something that I can do with my husband in the house.