As my last session was ending, I mentioned to my therapist that after the recent event involving intrusive thoughts, I had a desire to confront my uncle. She said something about it being good to be angry and I immediately corrected her and said that I’m not angry at him. Yes, I know that I should be but I’m not, which is something I’ll bring up with her later. Anyway, she asked what I meant then and I said that I want answers. I want him to tell me what he did to me. I want him to admit it and fill in the gaps, which I of course no will never happen.
My therapist then made a suggestion that freaked me out even though it involves not actually sending anything. She said that I should write him a letter that I will never send. Then she added that I could instead write a letter from him to me that has what I wish to hear in it, including a heartfelt apology.
For some reason this idea really makes me feel weird but I can’t explain why. What do you guys think?