Can’t bother with getting up

Even though I’m a little groggy, I don’t think that my lack of motivation is all due to the new med. I got up for a little bit and I wanted to exercise but I couldn’t get up the energy to care. I gained over 10 lbs on the Saphris and I feel hideous! Normally I would hop up and start dancing to lose the weight but between the drowsiness and lack of caring I just look down at myself, wearing a sweatshirt and pajamas bottoms and give up. It’s the same damn process over and over: take new med, have side effects, gain 10-15 lbs, come off med, and workout until I can’t breathe to lose it. I’m tired of it. I hate everything about myself and my looks anyway that this just adds to it. I’m even writing this from my phone because I can’t bother with getting up.

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About CimmarianInk

Abuse Survivor Diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder PTSD and Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) also known as Multiple Personalities
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2 Responses to Can’t bother with getting up

  1. castorgirl says:

    Sending positive thoughts your way… I hope you can work your way out of the pit of yuckiness soon.

    Take care,

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