I’m so out of sync it feels. The clocks just went back an hour, and my brain has been thinking it’s a day ahead for two days now. It’s been sunny out and the leaves look pretty on the ground but I’m not really feeling alive or feeling the day, if that makes sense.
I had an obligation (not a bad one) the other day but I found myself highly irritable and just plain angry for much of the day. I saw people who I would normally be happy to see, but I wasn’t. The second they started talking I felt like I didn’t have the energy to listen to anything they said. I just didn’t care, but not caring went into irritation and then anger. I tried very hard to pretend I wasn’t feeling annoyed but I didn’t pull it off very well. I think no one noticed which is good. I just wanted to be home and alone.
It’s so weird to see a nice, shiny day outside and feel cut-off and disjointed.