As you saw I apologized for not being more active on some of your blogs and I just wanted to give an update to tell you why my brain is Swiss cheese right now.
I saw my therapist and told her all about what’s going on with my mother. I told her about the stuff she stole and how much I wanted it back and how bothered I was by the whole thing. She made a surprising suggestion, which was to see my mother in order to get what I wanted. I shuddered and my head started hurting but she made the point that people do a lot to get what they want. The question was how much do I want any of those items, like the photo albums. Well, I want them pretty damn bad.
My thought on the matter was to tell her to bring them so I can copy them and then return them to her husband after she’s gone. That’s the only way that she’ll see me. I would have her come to me because if she doesn’t show up with the albums she will not be coming into my house. She doesn’t know that because my therapist told me not to add any fire to the problem by demanding things or telling her that I have no intention of rescinding the no contact rule. I need to get what I want first. There’s no way I’d get the other items she stole back but my therapist thought that my request was reasonable.
Now I’m just waiting to hear if she’s going to do it. I’m nervous and sick and I hate this so much, but I just keep thinking about my grandmother’s pictures and I just want them.
I can’t concentrate on anything else until I know what’s going to happen and it’s ruining my week.