I have to say that I feel really strange these days. Ever since I reached that acceptance and let go of the doubt (for now), I’ve been feeling like I’m standing on the edge of this precipice, just waiting for something to push me over.
It’s odd. For example, I was laying in bed and I was purposely lying there in the quiet of the morning. I felt this weird ripple come over my body and with it several, images that I couldn’t grasp in quick succession. I think they were either images of a house or rooms or something but it was gone too fast for me to really catch it. And it’s been like that for several days; weird moments like something’s about to happen and I kind have to force myself to relax because it’s like my body starts to get ready, but ready for what I don’t know.
It seems strange to me that my physical body would react to flashes of images that I don’t understand. Is this normal? Is this what happens after you stop doubting and start listening to yourself?
It makes me feel kind of anxious and I’m really having to forcefully relax and talk to myself a lot (not any parts per se, just me).
The mind/body connection is throwing me. I need to figure out how to relax more fully and just let whatever happens, happen.