Monthly Archives: July 2012

An unwilling walk down memory lane


Today I heard from a woman who I haven’t spoken to in about 17 years. she called about the death of my (non-abusing) uncle. When I heard her voice in my inbox I felt anxiety and fear and grief. It’s … Continue reading

Posted in Child Molestation, Incest, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, PTSD, Sexual Abuse, Trauma | Tagged , , , , , | 11 Comments

What is an eating disorder really?


My therapist and I discussed my recent trip and the subsequent fallout from my self-hatred and utter disgust with my appearance and weight. During the discussion she, for a second time since I’ve been in therapy, told me that I … Continue reading

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Third Eye Can’t See (collage)


Third Eye Can’t See 

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A Death In My Twisted Family


My mother’s brother has died. This is not the uncle who abused me (as far as I know he never did anything to me) but this is the brother that she said raped her when she was younger. I say … Continue reading

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Protected: Self-hatred (my vacation) *you have to ask for the password*


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Shame spiral won’t leave


I apparently did something stupid yesterday. I won’t get into what led up to my actions because I’m sure it’s TMI but now I’m dealing with uncomfortable consequences like feeling dirty and generally grossed out and wrong. I initiated intimacy … Continue reading

Posted in DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Incest, Intimacy, Sexual Abuse | Tagged , , , , , , | 12 Comments

Another Seroquel Side Effect To Be Aware Of


I just wanted to write a short post to let people know that they really need to be on their game when it comes to paying attention to Seroquel side effects. For the last couple of years I’ve been having … Continue reading

Posted in bipolar disorder, Medication, Psychiatric Drugs, Psychiatric medication | Tagged , | 16 Comments