Monthly Archives: December 2012

Reconnect The Disconnect


Yes again with the eating but I’ll try to be less whiny and more to the point… *Warning: I will mention calorie numbers in this post because I’m making a point about disordered thinking. If that will bother you or … Continue reading

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My Wishes For The Next Year (Not Fluffy or Pretty)


  I’m feeling rather morose and I’ve been thinking about what I want for myself next year. As the items came to my mind I realized that this is not a pretty list. It’s not nice, it’s actually quite…not nice. … Continue reading

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2012 in review: Thank You To Everyone For Staying With Me


The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog. Here’s an excerpt: 4,329 films were submitted to the 2012 Cannes Film Festival. This blog had 25,000 views in 2012. If each view were a film, this … Continue reading

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Picture: Little Girl Tossed (Playfully)In The Air By Father


I saw this picture today and found myself completed fascinated by it. I’m not sure if it’s precisely safe but it might be. I have no experience with such things. I took a screenshot so I could share it. Hopefully … Continue reading

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Nothing Has Changed


You know, I just looked over some past posts from a year go and more and I’ve realized that I am in exactly the same spot that I was in last year. That is horrible. There has been no progress, … Continue reading

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Verifying I *Can* Remember My Past


I’m swirling around in a frothy, annoying blender of doubt and frustration. That was beautiful wasn’t it? I simply cannot believe myself. I cannot believe the images I see and I am utterly terrified that these are just products of … Continue reading

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“Let’s Talk About Something Else…”


My therapist said that this week and although the shift was abrupt, it was welcomed. When she said that, I felt a sense of gratitude because we’ve done nothing but go in circles with me talking about food and her … Continue reading

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