Monthly Archives: October 2013

Hmmm I May Need to Amend My Last Post


As I’m sitting here thinking of my day , I’m wondering if I need to apply something my therapist said. She tells me to check my reactions to see if they fit the present circumstances. I’ve been anxious about a … Continue reading

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(Amended read next post)Panic Over Possible Change In Marriage Dynamics


I’ll explain my post title. My husband has a habit of complaining constantly about things and I’m not exaggerating about the constant part. Everyday from the time he’s home until he goes to sleep and if it’s day off then … Continue reading

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Disturbing Duality In A Flashback


In line with my new goal to be more open to accepting the flashes I see as truth…as actual flashbacks, I am going to address this incident as a flashback (even though the little questioning elf that lives in my … Continue reading

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One of Those Duh Moments In Therapy (Again)


I wanted to replay a conversation I had in therapy this week because I was kind of like “Duh” at myself at the end and I found it helpful. However since it is me going over specific childhood memories (non-trauma … Continue reading

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Misdirection and Old Memories


I should catch you guys up on what’s been happening. First, I decided to allow my mother some limited contact, very limited. Did I say “very” already? I had two reasons: 1) she came as close to apologizing as I … Continue reading

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I Briefly Paused


Hi everyone. Yes I’m still here. It’s been difficult to write because even though I have had quite a bit going on, including a rather unpleasant bought of tortuous inner turmoil… I couldn’t form my feelings into words. Sometimes when … Continue reading

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