I’ve been going through a particularly rough patch involving my weight, past eating disorder and the effects all of this is having on my mental health.
The problem is that I really would like to write about it but I don’t know if I could write as honestly as I would need to because I would fear hurting readers who I know struggle with their own weight issues.
I would never ever want to do that but there are aspects of disordered eating that I believe need to be openly discussed. It’s not to say in any way that the thinking is healthy or correct because it is not. And that’s the point. I want to openly talk about my unhealthy thinking but I don’t know how to do that without being hurtful.
I considered making the post password protected but then that closes down the whole open thing doesn’t it?
This issue is why I’ve been so quiet recently. I need to get this out of my head and into words but…how do you say things that are mean and hateful and awful but also honest even as they are completely wrong?
This is my blog but it’s also a place for my readers. I want you to feel welcomed here but isn’t my point to be honest? To tell you how I’m feeling and thinking? To let people know they’re not weird for feeling a certain way? How can I do that if I stay quiet?