There’s This Feeling

There’s this feeling hanging over me. The feeling that something is very wrong but I can’t grasp it. The feeling that there’s a whole life hidden in my head that I don’t know about. I can see little blips like clips from a movie repeating in front of my eyes but they’re so quick I can’t really see them. I feel fear, sadness, but it never processes because it won’t come out. The feeling just stays with me and it’s so heavy. I don’t want to get rid of it…the feeling let’s me know that it’s real. I just need to understand it. I just need to know. I think I have the right to know the truth about my own life.


About CimmarianInk

Abuse Survivor Diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder PTSD and Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) also known as Multiple Personalities
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15 Responses to There’s This Feeling

  1. Broken Girl says:

    Hey, CI! I don’t know what to say except that I get that feeling sometimes too. For me, it feels like something is trying to come out (a memory/strong emotion from the past/whatever), but it’s getting checked internally for whatever reason and isn’t coming out. So, I’m left with this heavy feeling. It can be very frustrating. Hang in there :).

    • CimmarianInk says:

      Hi BG,
      Nice to see you. πŸ™‚ My therapist said that it will come out when I’m ready and to just remain open and trust myself and the process. That is very difficult and I hope that you find resolution as well.

  2. kat says:

    hi, i was just wondering if i might have the password. thanks

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