So much therapeutic work lost!!!!

So I guess I must have been living in a cave that was located at the bottom of a volcano in the middle of the Bermuda Triangle because I didn’t find out until yesterday that Polyvore was gone! Why is this important?

Well if any of you have been around since the very, very, VERY old times you might recall that back in those days there was a rather strong group of abuse bloggers who used Polyvore to make collages about our experiences and feelings, in fact there was a dedicated sexual abuse support group on Polyvore survivors.

It was a great place, instead of having to collect hundreds or thousands of magazines and cut out infinite pictures, you could use Polyvore’s database to find the images you needed to express your pain or confusion, your memories or lack thereof…anything, everything. I think the support group even had contests for featured collages. It was a unique.

And it’s gone. But it’s been gone for like a year or more! And apparently they had a window where users could have backed up their data before it lost but dumb me had no idea they were being bought out. My data is gone.

I probably made a hundred collages about my abuse during a time when I was going through profound confusion and broken memories. They’re all gone and I can’t get any of those images or what they could invoke back. How did I miss that they were closing it!!??

Nothing to do about it…all that work…gone. Sigh. How are you guys?

About CimmarianInk

Abuse Survivor Diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder PTSD and Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) also known as Multiple Personalities
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9 Responses to So much therapeutic work lost!!!!

  1. I’m so sorry that happened to you! *hugs* I’ve been going through some angst about mental health and dissociation stuff. You know how that goes. I’ve been drawing a whooooole bunch. It helps get the pain out of me.

  2. Carol Anne says:

    Awe no! So sorry hun! Sucks! You must be devastated. xox

  3. Freasha1964 says:

    Hi CI, I immediately thought, well, I have saved several of these, especially the one when you made a conceptual collage of several of us including me. I went searching for them and that is why I never got back to you. I had saved some of your old postings in my email software, and sometimes the postings completely disappeared, sometimes I could read them but the pictures were gone. I left your posting(this current one) in my inbox, and intended to search some more, and I still do. I haven’t been inspired about other places to search, but you are staying in my inbox till I abandon hope.
    In the mean time, a vignette. I was trying to throw a pot on the wheel long ago and it collapsed and my teacher walked by and said: make a better one. I tell myself that often now about other things. But these collages are records of where you’ve been, so making a better one isn’t the point.
    It is a grief, no matter whose fault.

    • CimmarianInk says:

      You are way, way too good to me Freasha. Your exceptional qualities including your kind heart is exactly why I made those personalized collages so long ago. In way I had been thinking along the lines of your illustration in that I could, right now, remake some of the collages based on how I feel now but that’s exactly the point isn’t it? It will never be the same because I’m not the same. The me that existed back then is gone so that perception and memory is gone, anything I do now will be new and from a different me. I think I may still do new collages but you’re correct, the grief ugh…yeah.

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