Category Archives: depersonalization

Wow My Brain Is Really Ummm… Crappy Right Now


A brief post is better than none right? My therapist thinks that I’m kind of starving myself of anything I really need (not just physical stuff but things that I like) and that includes blogging which is why my posts … Continue reading

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It’s Been A Rough 24 Hours And Counting


*I discuss many things that I’m going through right now so this post is very random. I apologize if it’s TMI but you guys know that I’m honest* I’m having a bad day (if “day” can be counted as about … Continue reading

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Has this all been a distraction?


*I’m updating this post with a few words because this also serves to help me remember and I forgot something* *Subject is food and whatever else comes up* I am just beginning to realize that something may be wrong with … Continue reading

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All I see is surface


I had an uncomfortable realization a couple of days ago when I looked at my husband. I didn’t feel anything. I looked at him and it was like he was just this surface that I could see but there was … Continue reading

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What does resilience mean? Based on a Tweet conversation with NAMI


Here is where my thoughts on this subject began. There was a Tweet chat with NAMI Massachusetts and I saw this statement: NAMIMass A1: It largely depends on the resiliency of the child/adolescent. Some are more or less resilient to #traumatic #stress #mhsm Now at … Continue reading

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Having A “Blank Slate” When It Comes To Feelings


This week the day leading up to therapy was full of feelings. Anxiety and super-pissedoffedness (yes I made up another word). The anxiety was because I did not want to go to therapy this week. It wasn’t because of fear, … Continue reading

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Panic at the eye doctor


I have no idea how to explain what happened or why it happened. It’s not abuse related but I honestly have no other place to just talk about it. I went in for my annual eye exam at my regular … Continue reading

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