Category Archives: depersonalization

An Interesting Approach To Working With Alters


I’m often glad when I say something in therapy that reveals I’ve misunderstood something that my therapist has said. It tends to, no, it always makes both of us stop with wide eyes, shake our heads in confusion and then … Continue reading

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Wow My Brain Is Really Ummm… Crappy Right Now


A brief post is better than none right? My therapist thinks that I’m kind of starving myself of anything I really need (not just physical stuff but things that I like) and that includes blogging which is why my posts … Continue reading

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It’s Been A Rough 24 Hours And Counting


*I discuss many things that I’m going through right now so this post is very random. I apologize if it’s TMI but you guys know that I’m honest* I’m having a bad day (if “day” can be counted as about … Continue reading

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Has this all been a distraction?


*I’m updating this post with a few words because this also serves to help me remember and I forgot something* *Subject is food and whatever else comes up* I am just beginning to realize that something may be wrong with … Continue reading

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All I see is surface


I had an uncomfortable realization a couple of days ago when I looked at my husband. I didn’t feel anything. I looked at him and it was like he was just this surface that I could see but there was … Continue reading

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What does resilience mean? Based on a Tweet conversation with NAMI


Here is where my thoughts on this subject began. There was a Tweet chat with NAMI Massachusetts and I saw this statement: NAMIMass A1: It largely depends on the resiliency of the child/adolescent. Some are more or less resilient to #traumatic #stress #mhsm Now at … Continue reading

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Having A “Blank Slate” When It Comes To Feelings


This week the day leading up to therapy was full of feelings. Anxiety and super-pissedoffedness (yes I made up another word). The anxiety was because I did not want to go to therapy this week. It wasn’t because of fear, … Continue reading

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