Category Archives: depression

Grrrr Argh Etc


***Slight warning of weight talk but it’s about getting back to a healthy BMI. Mentions of body image issues, mostly me grumbling.*** I know, I know, I’m supposed to put part two of my two part therapy story up (does … Continue reading

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Now Everything Comes Back


Ugh.  I probably have to slightly explain that something happened to me last year health-wise that made me very aware of stress. I felt a need to control my stress. Ha! Control. Silly me believing in control!  Well, what happened … Continue reading

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Tea


I’m thinking about tea. My autoimmune disease has been flaring very badly for over a month. I just had surgery five days ago, but right now, I’m thinking about tea. I’m drinking a cup of Sleepytime Tea, you might know … Continue reading

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Down, Down, Down


My stepfather planned to give me some of my mother’s things along with items that had belonged to my grandmother when he traveled through my part of the country this month. He had a tentative date for his trip and … Continue reading

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The Indignity Of Death


My stepfather sent my mother’s death certificate along with the coroner’s report. I read rather quickly and unfortunately my eyes picked up many phrases in the report before I actually realized what I was glancing at. I didn’t know he … Continue reading

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Images


I continue to be overwhelmed by my feelings over my mother’s death. I think that, subconsciously, I was aware that at least she was somewhere in the world and I guess that mattered. I didn’t know that it mattered. Now … Continue reading

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Shutdown?


I really should remember that every post doesn’t have to be really long. Many times I don’t write because the posts would be brief. I feel like I’m going down…like depression is coming. Like if I stop moving I will … Continue reading

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