Category Archives: Mania

Which Blog Is This???


Hello dear readers. It’s time for another episode of “oh look, she’s back after she said she’d be around more, AGAIN.” Yes, I am the worst and that actually brings me to the title of today’s entry: which blog is … Continue reading

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Now Everything Comes Back


Ugh.  I probably have to slightly explain that something happened to me last year health-wise that made me very aware of stress. I felt a need to control my stress. Ha! Control. Silly me believing in control!  Well, what happened … Continue reading

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She’s Gone


“J” my therapist for 14 years passed away last Friday. I actually didn’t find out until this Monday; my psychiatrist actually caught it in the paper and he had to call me back about something and told me. I was … Continue reading

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The words “I believe you” and their effects in many avenues of life.


I had the appointment with the rheumatologist yesterday. This was the appointment that had been messing with my mind for a while. I knew that if this doctor didn’t take my symptoms seriously and actually do something…I was not going … Continue reading

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Why am I surprised to feel a feeling?


Maybe it’s because I’ve been so disconnected lately, I don’t know, but it took me by surprise today to realize that I feel depressed, at least I feel depressed today. I haven’t felt a lot recently so I can’t speak for the other … Continue reading

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I was surprised that my therapist actually responded to my email “check-in”


I did what I was supposed to and I checked in with my therapist while she is out out-of-town. I wasn’t surprised that she acknowledged receiving it, what surprised me was that the next day she had actually thought about something I … Continue reading

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Going on practically NO sleep


I had a late night last night due to getting together with some friends and since I had an appointment today, I couldn’t take my new medicine because it seems to take 12 hours to go through my system. I … Continue reading

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