Category Archives: suicidal ideation

A Little Bit Right?


I always do this. I always think that unless I have a novel to post I can’t post anything here. I need to get over that because I know I onlt have maybe 3 of you left who even read … Continue reading

Posted in Alters, bipolar disorder, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Incest, Multiple Personalities, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Psychiatry, PTSD, suicidal ideation, Therapy, Trauma | Tagged , , , , , , | 8 Comments

As Promised, A Post


Well this is what happens when you don’t blog for a while, you forget what’s happened. I’ll try to remember the main points. There may be some sensitive material here, discussion of suicidal ideation, abuse, depression. I don’t know what … Continue reading

Posted in bipolar disorder, Child Abuse, Child Molestation, dissociative identity disorder, Dreams, Incest, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Rape, self-harm, Sexual Abuse, suicidal ideation, Therapy, Trauma | Tagged , , , | 2 Comments

Taking Stock


Sometimes you keep getting smacked in the face and you just have to stop and take stock of what’s going on in your life and at least acknowledge it so you can see what you’re up against. I think that … Continue reading

Posted in abuse, Child Abuse, Child Molestation, dissociative identity disorder, Eating Disorder, Incest, neglect, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, PTSD, Rape, self-harm, Self-injury, Sexual Abuse, suicidal ideation, Therapy, Trauma | Tagged , , , , , , , | 18 Comments

Is It Hospital Time?


*mild trigger warning for depressed thoughts and suicidal ideation mentioned once* Emotions are flat. I’m tired, no enjoyment. Feeling like I’m not contributing anything to society.   Happened very suddenly though out of nowhere, not gradually like usual so I’m confused. … Continue reading

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Bucking The System


It doesn’t matter what my therapist says. I’m not ready to change my behaviors. Everything I read says that a person has to want to stop first. I don’t want to. It’s that simple. Maybe this makes me a bad … Continue reading

Posted in Child Molestation, DID, Eating Disorder, Incest, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, PTSD, self-harm, Self-injury, Sexual Abuse, suicidal ideation, Trauma | Tagged , , , , , , , | 13 Comments

Out Of Options


My therapist told me today that considering my blood tests and blood pressure dropping that I am a few weeks away from having to go into to treatment a few hours away from where I live. She said that soon … Continue reading

Posted in Child Molestation, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Eating Disorder, Incest, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, PTSD, self-harm, Self-injury, Sexual Abuse, suicidal ideation, Therapy, Trauma | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | 18 Comments

The Blood Never Lies


I wasn’t sure how or when to blog about my recent blood tests. No need to freak, everything’s fine but I’m more interested in my reactions than I am in the test results themselves. My therapist ordered blood work because … Continue reading

Posted in Child Molestation, depression, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Eating Disorder, Incest, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, PTSD, self-harm, Self-injury, Sexual Abuse, suicidal ideation, Trauma | Tagged , , , , , , | 16 Comments