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Fast post, will write more tomorrow


Had therapy and the subject of me having a sexual addiction came up (because of the compulsive behavior). Wow. Also brief talk of masturbation as a form of self-punishment, a revelation that came from me. more on that later. And there … Continue reading

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Ok so I’m a big liar and I am going to blog today after all :P


*There are 3 collages at the end from Polyvore* I saw everyone meeting the new year with hope and optimism, which is cool. It’s just that I didn’t have any magical feelings of “Woohoo world, here I come!, Yippie 2011!”. Don’t … Continue reading

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I feel like I’m raining on everyone’s New Year’s parade


Everyone’s riding the tide of the New Year, feeling full of optimism and verve, and I feel…the same as last year, which was a few days ago. Haha. I was going to blog today but now I feel like I shouldn’t … Continue reading

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2010 in review (I’m surprised anybody came at all to be honest)


The stats helper monkeys at WordPress.com mulled over how this blog did in 2010, and here’s a high level summary of its overall blog health: The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads Wow. Crunchy numbers A Boeing 747-400 passenger jet can hold 416 passengers. … Continue reading

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Realizations about myself as a person


I was sitting on the floor of my bathroom yesterday in the dark. I was thinking and wondering why people who were supposed to love me, hurt me instead. My mother, the Uncle, my father…all these people. My father never abused … Continue reading

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Collage


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Is this my life now? A whiny post.


So I was sitting here today feeling both bipolar depression and numbness from the abuse issues (uncomfortable) and I thought: Is this my life now, feeling this way? Dealing with being bipolar, having DID and both the physical and sexual abuse … Continue reading

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