Tag Archives: dissociative

Now Everything Comes Back


Ugh.  I probably have to slightly explain that something happened to me last year health-wise that made me very aware of stress. I felt a need to control my stress. Ha! Control. Silly me believing in control!  Well, what happened … Continue reading

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A Little Bit Right?


I always do this. I always think that unless I have a novel to post I can’t post anything here. I need to get over that because I know I onlt have maybe 3 of you left who even read … Continue reading

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How Could You Explain DID To Someone?


Recently I was with friends, one of them my best friend who doesn’t know that I have DID, and we were discussing someone we know who has been displaying some odd behavior that seems to be rooted in mental illness. … Continue reading

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Wow My Brain Is Really Ummm… Crappy Right Now


A brief post is better than none right? My therapist thinks that I’m kind of starving myself of anything I really need (not just physical stuff but things that I like) and that includes blogging which is why my posts … Continue reading

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All Stopped Up


I think there must be such a thing as emotional constipation. That’s what I’m going to call this. I am completely stopped up! Emotionally. I am frozen. I can’t do anything I like or enjoy and it’s not even depression. … Continue reading

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Guys This Was So Scary!


I had therapy this week with my new therapist. Somehow the sexual abuse has come up a lot faster than it did with my previous therapist, maybe because I’m more comfortable with discussing it in that setting. Anyway, it wasn’t … Continue reading

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All I see is surface


I had an uncomfortable realization a couple of days ago when I looked at my husband. I didn’t feel anything. I looked at him and it was like he was just this surface that I could see but there was … Continue reading

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