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Sharing Thoughts From a Book I Found: Part One


In this society Child Sexual Abuse is not something people want to talk about so it can be very difficult to find reading material discussing it that is trustworthy and balanced. There are of course books written by survivors but … Continue reading

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My Mental Courthouse and The Current Ruling


I wanted to write about this today before I lose the grasp on what I’m feeling. I went in to therapy this week feeling highly frustrated and disgusted with myself and confused. I felt unable to explain or understand my … Continue reading

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Little Revelations


I’ve been quiet for long periods of time between posting. It annoys me that I have nothing to write on several levels. On one level it means that nothing is progressing. On another level, I feel like I let my … Continue reading

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My friend self-loathing wants me to stay home


I don’t know what I was thinking. I decided that I needed to check out some books about abuse from the library, including one that has interviews with about 30 offenders so as to explain why they abused kids. I’m … Continue reading

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Why am I surprised to feel a feeling?


Maybe it’s because I’ve been so disconnected lately, I don’t know, but it took me by surprise today to realize that I feel depressed, at least I feel depressed today. I haven’t felt a lot recently so I can’t speak for the other … Continue reading

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I was surprised that my therapist actually responded to my email “check-in”


I did what I was supposed to and I checked in with my therapist while she is out out-of-town. I wasn’t surprised that she acknowledged receiving it, what surprised me was that the next day she had actually thought about something I … Continue reading

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Future postings may go all over the place, I don’t know


I’m having many issues and shifts and I’m handling them all badly. I figured I’d just warn you that the subjects may go from abuse, to DID, to hideous physical pain, to bipolar stuff, to anguish, to compulsive behavior, to severe anxiety … Continue reading

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