Tag Archives: self harm

Taking Stock


Sometimes you keep getting smacked in the face and you just have to stop and take stock of what’s going on in your life and at least acknowledge it so you can see what you’re up against. I think that … Continue reading

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Hope Kills And I’m Tired Of It


Trigger and content warning:**** after much wrestling with my feelings about posting something that would be hateful and negative and after asking about it here, I’ve decided to write a post centered around my current struggles with trying not to … Continue reading

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Bucking The System


It doesn’t matter what my therapist says. I’m not ready to change my behaviors. Everything I read says that a person has to want to stop first. I don’t want to. It’s that simple. Maybe this makes me a bad … Continue reading

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Out Of Options


My therapist told me today that considering my blood tests and blood pressure dropping that I am a few weeks away from having to go into to treatment a few hours away from where I live. She said that soon … Continue reading

Posted in Child Molestation, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Eating Disorder, Incest, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, PTSD, self-harm, Self-injury, Sexual Abuse, suicidal ideation, Therapy, Trauma | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | 18 Comments

The Blood Never Lies


I wasn’t sure how or when to blog about my recent blood tests. No need to freak, everything’s fine but I’m more interested in my reactions than I am in the test results themselves. My therapist ordered blood work because … Continue reading

Posted in Child Molestation, depression, DID, dissociation, dissociative identity disorder, Eating Disorder, Incest, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, PTSD, self-harm, Self-injury, Sexual Abuse, suicidal ideation, Trauma | Tagged , , , , , , | 16 Comments

My Wishes For The Next Year (Not Fluffy or Pretty)


  I’m feeling rather morose and I’ve been thinking about what I want for myself next year. As the items came to my mind I realized that this is not a pretty list. It’s not nice, it’s actually quite…not nice. … Continue reading

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The Power of Words aka What You Say Vs. What I Hear


My therapist said something to me either this last week or a couple of weeks ago, I can’t remember but the words have been haunting and hounding me. They’ve doubled, then tripled in strength since they were first said. The interesting … Continue reading

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